Oldies memory

Recently, I've been thinking about lotsa of things... really alot..
Be it family, future, kid, career and even some oldies memory set me pondering alot.

And guess what, when I started to think of one, this link me thinking of another one..
ya. weird me.
But somehow or rather, both of them appear in my mind again.
Once again, they're being dig out.

No, I should say, one is always remember deep in my heart, "Zx" is being dig out for no reason as I don't even know where is he now, what he is doing.. how is he coping with his life..
But all these are out of concern.. afterall, once we spent happy moment together before, although only as 'friends'..

To think back, is it a regret that we didn't develop further...or should I feel happy we din..
I'm not saying he's a bad man, but neither is he a good man.
He treated one of my friend very badly. Consider a Jerk, I guess. I din really interview her on that issue. Don't want to bring those bad memory to her again. But perhaps, deep inside her heart, she does misses him.

As to compare and as a self-comfort, at least he treated me very well, really very nice to me in the past.
To my buddy, she will said,"think of all these for what? You got nothing better to do ar?". Yes, she is Leng Bing Bing!

Hmm...why am I so into the past now.. thanks to dat special him lor..
Set me pondering about my past and trying to make a conclusion out of my life.
Nothing much for me to emo about but the .... it's too late 'past'.

Maybe if I grow old until my hair turn white, I will still think of the happy moment with the special him.
He just somehow or rather, live in my heart. No one can replace him and I don't intend to let anyone replace him.
Or I should just erase him off as he said alot of girls can't forget him too. I don't want to be one of those girls.

Life goes on without any changes. Grateful that things are in order now and the emo stuff will be another memory add-ons.
If things should change one day, perhaps by that time, it is fate.
If........

p/s: thinking should I post this or not..... Decided to post to remember this moment..

JENNIFER IS MARRIED!!

My boy is already 7 months old..

TIME FLY.................
He has grown from a 'wawa' baby to a baby who can dine in at his dad's previous work place, sitting on his own on a baby chair...
Start to imagine when he start walking.. hmm.. =)

旧爱还是最美?

有人会在你的世界里挥散不去吗?　
最近常常想起那个他.　.
　不知怎么了.　
大概我疯了吧!

Till Death do us part?

Recently I'm pondering alot on this issue, Death. It seem very scary. I know it will happen to everyone sooner or later, but I just can't accept that I will have to leave everyone around me eventually.

Before I fall asleep, this will be on my mind, automatically.. Thinking about what if one day I left suddenly .. what if I fall ill and left... alot n alot...

I don't know why I can't stop thinking about this.
Am I going crazy? Or am I too afraid to leave?

I guess I'm just being over-reacting.. So called... kan bu kai..

If that day come, help me to tell my parents, my hubby and my son, I love them and ask them not to sad as I can't bear to leave too..
And all my friends, I love u all too..

Birthday of mine...

Well, as I get older, birthday become very simple.. or rather, my birthday had always spent simple except for my 25th birthday I spent with my grppyz at ktv.
That was the most enjoyable and unforgettable birthday.. And surprisingly, this year I recieved a number of blessing from my friends! Thanks them for remembering my birthday too!!

This year, my dearest cousin, Anmy dated me out for dinner to celebrate my birthday. So since it was my special day, I chose to dine in at Jap restaurant so that I can eat salmon! (My fav). It was so fun eating lot of lot of salmon again! Oh ya, there was 20% somemore. Worth it!

After the dinner, we went to my hubby's workplace to have dessert and my fav, rootbeer float... ok. Very full dinner. Had a fun chat with my cousin my hubby appeared with his staffs singing Happy Birthday song for me, holding my fav durian cake! What a surprise!

And my gift for birthday? The durian cake lor... =(
But I still love it! Thanks hubby and Anmy for celebrating my birthday!!~

I want to post picture and to remember I din take any. haiz. Next yr bahz.

Baby went swimming spa @ PS!

Green green... Yellow ??

He finally 'pop' out @ 20th Jan 2009

Before this, I'm asking him when is he going to meet me and daddy and of course, he cannot answer me.. I've been guessing everyday during my 9 months until this day..

On the 19th night, my hubby mentioned that 20th will be a busy day for him as his colleague is on PH.

After listening, I said this to him,"it's okay. Baby will come out on 20th so you don't need to go work..."

Well, baby heard it too! He acted accordingly to mummy's plan and come out on the 20th!

It was a long labour.. I experienced something is wrong at 12.30am and sms-ed my buddy to make enquiry. She advised to go hospital at once. After knowing this message, I continued to play with my psp for another 20 minutes and experienced a little cramp and headed to the Mt. A..

Reached there about 1.30am. Nurse attended to me calmly and I looked very calm too. She checked on and me and said,"Yes, u're going to labour by today.." I was quite scare when I know I was going to deliver real soon.... Everything is okay as the contraction is quite far apart..

About 5am onwards, the contraction got quite near and I was on laughing gas to ease the pain.. it did help at first... about 6plus, I was in terrible pain but thinking I could do it without epidural, I fought with the pain... Nurse came in and checked me and asked me if I want an injection on my thigh... of course I want it! Unbearable pain indeed! Hubby stood beside me looking so helpless.. I was so painful dat I didn't manage to speak up...

Finally I tortured until 8plus and decided to stop the pain by requesting for the epidural. Nurse came in and said this,"Epidural $500." Ya.. I don't care $500 or $1000. Just inject it!

Okay, if I know epidural can help so much, I will request for it once I'm in pain. Stupid me to bear with the pain for so long..

Well, it was worth the pain when I saw my baby come out so big, weighing at 3.91kg and so healthy.. And yes, I'm a mother already..

I love u, Baby Fabian~

New Year : New Sofa Cover

Hee.. finally I've a new sofa cover after pestering my hubby to buy it for so long........

New Year : New Sofa Cover

Happy New Year!!~