Just come across my mind til I met this person..
I've decided to write down my thoughts in case I forgot years later..
I've met this person who is no manner, which make me feel dat I ought to teach my kid (If I manage to have one) the correct manner and the way to behave..
I will teach my kid to greet properly. Not greeting elder is a very rude action. In my past, if I never greet anyone, I'm sorry. It was a big mistake as it is very rude to do so.. I've learnt my mistake and I dunwan my kid to repeat the same.
Of course, I will teach my kid not to bully anyone. If she/he did, I will definitely punish her/him.. It is a very wrong act for a kid to do so as well. But if my kid is being bullied, I will teach my kid to tell me who bully him instead of she/he trying her/his mean to revenge. Of course, I will teach my kid the proper channel to handle this kind of tyrant.
Most imporantly, I will definitely not allow my girl to stay at her bf's house when she turn teenage. If they really want to spend time together, come to my house instead.Same apply to my boy, NO GIRL ALLOW TO BRING HOME FOR STAY. He can go over to her house if her parents allow him to do so..
Why?
Cause I know the feeling of being called a slut for staying over at bf's house. I dun feel good, especially it was the bf's mum who said so.. My mum did scolded me when I was young for staying at bf's house, I ignored her advise and I regretted it when I grow old..
Well, to avoid all the above nonsense, NO STAYING AT BF'S HOUSE OVERNIGHT!
Now when I tot back, it is really not very good for staying at bf's house, cause girl never know how his family think of her..and den it leave a bad impression..
Actually, no one is born perfect.
I'm an easy forgive and forget person, but I dun like others to frame me, accusing me. I can easily forgive a person when she/he apologize.
But nowadays, I get paranoid easily.. I keep think of people is trying to talk bad about me, trying to frame me, dislike me... Den I will do things to let them know I know wat they are talking about me and I dislike them too... And the actually fact is, it might be nothing to do with them at all.. IT IS MYSELF GETTING PARANOID! Thinking of people hating me!
I asked doctor, he said my illness would caused such imagination. Am I going mad?
I guess I'm going to be crazy soon...
This is the 3rd person who let me go crazy by her behaviour, and I clearly know she might not be talking bad about me...But another part of me keep telling me she is spouting nonsense about me right now.. what should I do.... I take my medicine as usual, but my illness seem not recovering...
Should I see the doctor again? I dun like to be like this.. I dunwan to treat anyone badly and hate myself after the incident.. but I really cannot control my emotional..
HOW??????
1 comment:
Feelin paranoid or not, it's not caused by your thinking, but merely how you really... I do feel what others think of me too. no matter how well they tried to hide it.
i confessed my true feelings to the one whom i've loved, i ended up losing her, as everyone thought i wasn't good enough, made up all lies and excuses to break us up, with her still being ignorant of my feelings, chose to believe in them, yet it was them who made her cried time and again...
And now, i've decided to lead my life the cruel way this world had given me
-ah piao
someone no longer who i used to be
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