u.me.n.time

For a moment, I sat on my chair..
I stared..I closed my eyes..
Ya..memories came flashing on my mind..

I thought of the things happened to me this year..I asked myself what haf I achieved..
I smiled to myself..hmm..ya..Nothing...nothing at all..

This did teach me a lesson..time flies without waiting..
we went to school..graduated..entered into work life..just in a blink of an eye's time..those were our memories today..

We go to bed, before we know it, its morning..ya..time to prepare for work again..
we start work, with struggle and war, another end of a day....
You linger your thoughts on weekend programme...in a flash..ur weekends just passed without knowing it..
And who know..in a few years' time, all these Todays just turned into memories once again like those u owned them now..

8 months ago..my birthday..yet I forgot wat I did on dat day..amazingly enuff..it was a day our mums suffered in pain..yet we celebrate it..
Half year ago..I was still excited over my buddy's wedding..and now..its memories with lotsa of photos..
3 months ago..I was happily at chalet with my grppyz celebrating Hui's birthday..and now..memories again thinking of who's birthday next-to-come..

And now..I'm so contented working in my current company..with a good boss..
It might become memory few months later I did feel so..at least I did..

Til my hair turned grey..I shall think back..traits of mine and til den remain..
I shall...
Cos pple alway say.."Time changes a man..."

Interesting Quotes

Lynn N Vine

Lynn get to know Vine through online...
They chatted on messenger if they happened to bump into each other..
Purely friends, they can talk about everything..
But actually, they seldom get the chance to really chat..

One fine day, Lynn was online, so did Vine..
They chatted but soon..Lynn got tired and decided to log off..
so they decided to exchange handphone number so dat they could sms instead of msn..

Vine did sms Lynn..but it was when Lynn already fell asleep on her cosy bed..
And since den, they started to sms each other everyday..
Lynn would hope for Vine's sms...
Vine would sms her to remind her to take her dinner..
For Lynn, it became weird when Vine didn't sms her..
Didn't know why also..

Things changed.
Of course Lynn didn't expect it would stay the same.
They met up one fine day.
The moment they parted, Vine smsed Lynn..
And did called her on dat night itself..
The next day he called too..but only awhile..
After dat day, sms from Vine get lesser day by day..
At time, he might not sms her for few days..
Lynn didn't sms him dat often too..
She didn't know wat to sms him..

Maybe one party expect more den friends and turn out to be she/he is not wat she/he expect?
One party decided to keep a distance?
or maybe their friendship is not as strong enough?

I didn't know how Lynn feel..
I didn't know what is Vine thinking..
I didn't know how come their friendship turned out to be this way..

Fruity Fragrance

Did a survery test and this is the result...

You are the fruity fragrance type:
You radiate independence & happiness, always immersed in fun-seeking activities, like an innocent child. You always manage to bring life into the party, thus you are indispensible to parties.

Although you are cheerful, well-liked by most, others think that its difficult to be good friends with you because the impression that you give is one of the comedian. Some thinks that you likes to make a fool of others and are dependent on others, so they are reluctant to be close to you.

But you are actually mature and firm. There are few that truly understand you, leaving you with a few bosom friends.......

(Well, I personally feel dat its accurate....)

Old..

Who will I be when I grow old?

Watching the sunset everyday by the window?

Reading novel on a rocking chair?

Looking at old photos thinking of the past?

Or just a lonely old woman?

Bad day

"diak diak diak..." I was still busy replying to email when my colleague shouted at me,"Hey, you dunwan to go home ah?"

I looked at my watch. Oh, its already 5.45pm..I packed my stuffs..took the documents which were needed to be pass to my account dept, ran to the lobby and placed 'em in the pigeon hole...
Everything were in a rush..really rush..coz I ran!!

I took a quick look at the area where my bus parked. Luckily, the bus had not leave.
Jj and I walked to the bus happily chatting.. walking in big step though..
We settled ourselves down and when I was about to open my bag and I realised..."MY HANDPHONE IS STILL IN THE OFFICE!!"
Oh my god!! How could I be so careless or absent minded!?!
(By the way, I'm dat kind who will feel weird without handphone by my side..)

I stood up..wanting to alight the bus to retrieve my handphone and the bus MOVED...
Yes! It was too late! Jj shouted,"Ask the driver to stop the bus!!"
But thinking of everyone have to wait for me..I did not do so..
This was not the end...
I was still thinking whether should I go back and take my handphone when the bus stopped at the traffic light..
Yes..STOPPED for more den 10 mins..
The bus broke down!!
It was just 3 bus-stops away from my house and it broke down!
Even bus want to bully me...
Arghhz..

What I did in the end:
I thought of my nice nice friend,Zhiwei who have a car..
but not remembering his handphone number, I called my dear Huihui to ask her to contact Zhiwei for me..and kind Zhiwei agreed to fetch me up and drove me back to my company to take back my handphone..
It is so nice of him..just to send me back to retrieve my handphone..
I'm so glad to have him as my friend..

As for my company transport, Mr driver uncle said we could take a cab and claimed from his transport company..so it was not so bad..
It was a bad day, not the worst though..

The Gorilla and the Lion

One day, a mime is visiting the zoo and attempts to earn some money as a street performer.
As soon as he starts to draw a crowd, the zoo keeper grabs him and drags him into his office.

The zoo keeper explains to the mime that the zoo's most popular attraction, a gorilla, died suddenly and the keeper fears that attendance at the zoo will fall off.
He offers the mime a job to dress up as the gorilla until they can get another one.
The mime accepts the offer.

So, the next morning, before the crowd arrives, the mime puts on the gorilla suit and enters the cage. He discovers that it's a great job. He can sleep all he wants, play and make fun of people,
and he draws larger crowds than he ever did as a mime on the street.

However, eventually the crowd tires of him, and he tires of just swinging on auto tires. He notices that the people are paying more attention to the lion in the next cage. Not wanting to lose the attention of his audience, he climbs to the top of his cage, crawls across a partition, and dangles from the top of the lion's cage.

Of course, this makes the lion furious, but the crowd loves it.
At the end of the day the zoo keeper comes and
gives the mime a raise for being such a good attraction.
Well, this goes on for some time, the mime keeps taunting the lion,
the crowd grows larger, and his salary keeps going up.

Then, one day, when he is dangling over the top of the lion's cage, he slips and falls. The mime is terrified. The lion raises himself up and prepares to pounce. The mime is so scared that he begins to run around the cage with the lion in hot pursuit.

Finally, the mime starts screaming, "Help! Help me!"
The lion is quick and pounces. The mime soon finds him flat on his back
looking up at the angry lion.
The lion says, "Shut up, you idiot, or we'll both lose our jobs!"

Entered.Out.

End before start...
Thinking might be the one..

In the end, its just another dream..
Glad to wake up from it..

Although it was short....
The memories..

Footstep in heart..
Remembered..

Monkey Hubby

Recently saw a "Monkey"..a very cute one!
Decided to keep it as mine and its my "monkey" hubby now..
He's a super oldies listener..
He..maybe like to eat Bing Qi Lin instead of bananas..
Super "love" him now!!
My cute "Monkey" Hubby....

Quitting?

"ah..I dunwan to work here anymore..."
..."Stress!! Stress!!"..
......"I want to find new job!!"

I heard all this..almost everyday? ya..almost..
I haf been with this company not long and
I witnessed few colleagues leaving not wanting their bonus..
alot of colleagues discussing abt quitting..

Wat or how is the prospect in this company I'm in now?
Problems with management or the staffs themselves?
Seem to be everyone is talking abt Quitting!!

Ya..even my own grppy told me she wanted to leave this company by next year which is ...
she will take her bonus and quit. (One of my grppy work in the same company with me.)
Kinda of sad to hear this, but no choice..I know she's facing alot of stress..
I just want her to be happy..if quitting this job can make her happy, I wish her all the best
although I can't bear to see her leaving..

Well, job is like this. A company can't stay for too long I guess, especially this one.
Some people can stay for 9yrs and just quitted bcoz of the boss's imperial treatment.
Afterall, we're all humans with feeling..
No one can torture mentally abused bah..

But I have no intentions of giving up this job, instead I hope I can stay for at least 2yrs.
Taking this company as a jumping stone.
I wanted to learn more and if can, maybe pursue my study during my 2yrs there.

A 8 to 5 job with free transportation to and fro work..a "can't ask for more" salary..
wat can I ask for..
Maybe I can ask for..my boss to like me more and give me more bonus next yr?

Heard colleague saying my boss is not dat good..
But currently he seem fine to me..
So I guess its fine too.

Other den dat, I make up my mind not to be affected by those colleagues who intend to leave..
Yes! I can do it!!

Boring story

How abt a story of me when I was young?

When I was abt 16yrs old, I alway hangout with my cousin who is a malaysian.
Reason why she's a malaysian while I'm a singaporean is because my auntie married to a malaysia husband.

Basically every weekend I would follow my cousin back home which is Johor Bahru and Monday I would wake up very early to go school from Johor Bahru. Taking a 45mins bus to malaysia custom, cross it, walk to singapore custom, take mrt all the way to my school,which is extreme west of singapore.

I like malaysia alot.
Maybe bcoz of the houses down there. Down to earth lifestyle. Really living on the ground.
Not like my own house, 7th storey..open my door and only to see my neighbour's door and staircase. No money for mansion u c..
Down there,I open the door, I saw trees, chickens running, dogs playing with each other.
Nature environment with no busy roads like singapore.

Saturday afternoon, we would set off to my cousin's house.
Had our lunch and a nap in the noon.
Evening time we would go to church and after dat was happy moments for me.
Meet up with friends to chit chat at those mama-tan.
Having my favourite teh-o ice limau, and roti-tissue.

And well, my 1st boyfriend was one of the friends in my cousin's group.
He's 2yrs older than me.
A skinny not so tall guy with a cheeky looks.
Joker type..alway full of craps.

He's a very close friend of my cousin.
He often called her up to chat on the phone..
Naturally, I thought he was going after her.
Slowly, I realised sometimes my cousin chatted with him, she would look at me and smile.
This is weird, I tot to myself.
Once, we were on our bed and she asked me,"how you find han?"
"huh?" why suddenly asked me abt han?
I tot my cousin was weird. Han is her friend,she should know better..why ask me?
So I just replied,"he ah? nice chap.."
Den my cousin just smiled at me and went to bed.
From there onwards, the call from him would alway passed to me when my cousin finished talking with him..

One day, han came to my cousin's house with his friend cum colleague.
Purpose of coming was to bring us out but my auntie didn't allow us to.
so we chatted at the gate instead..happily until it was around 12plus den they left.
His friend was shy. He was my age.
Cute quite small eye guy. That was the impression he left in my heart.

The following day, his friend came to look for me himself and brought me for a ride with his bike. 1st time bike ride experience. Fun..
I love bikes by the way..
Although my another cousin alway say I'm silly..She keep insisting car is better. But who cares..
Its my liking..
Nice night spent with him chatting and joking around.
Who knows it ended up kinda of stupid.

Han found out and they had a fight at their workplace regarding this.
Han was angry he came and look for me.
His friend was puzzled. Why couldn't he look for me was in his mind.
He questioned Han.
Han said,"bcoz I want to woo her."
His friend got the whole picture but he replied,"I didn't know dat but I don't care coz I want to woo her too!See who get her 1st."
Han was mad upon listening this and he punched him...and fight!
Kinda of silly when I think back now.

Actually, I was shocked to hear this news from my cousin.
She said,"wow, you're powerful. 2 guys fight bcoz of u."
I was innocent.
I didn't know he like me.
I didn't know his friend like me.
I didn't know anything.

The day they fought, both of 'em came to look for me one followed another half an hour later.
Dat chan mian was tough for me as I was only 16 dat time.
His friend came 1st.
Followed by Han.
Han stared at him.
No one talked.
It was so silent..until my cousin dragged han one side..
While they were away, his friend invited me for a spin..
I didn't know what to do and agreed..just want to leave dat chan mian.

Still rem han's look when he saw me leaving on his friend's bike.
Dat shock look.

Actually I forgot how we ended up together.
I just rem our daily routine when we were together.
On the phone monday to friday.
Talking abt the same things everyday.
Meet up only on sat n sun when I go over.
Report to me wherever he go..me finding him a pain in the neck dat time.
Young..dunno wat is love I guess.

Our relationship lasts for half a year only and I suggested breakup.
It was too bored to talk on the phone and chatted abt the same things everyday
and get to meet on weekend only..
Ya..again..young..dunno wat is love..
Marriage couples also do the same things everyday..
Cute he was..
went my cousin's house to look for me 2yrs later..
Guess he just forgot I live in singapore..

How do I live my life

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Hmm....change friends quickly? but all these years, buddy is still by my side.

Its doesn't really matter whether we understand each other or not..

Most important is we're willing to lend each other a shoulder to cry on..

Its doesn't really matter one is willing to talk to oneself or not..

Coz somehow or rather, we do understand each other bit by bit..

not totally unaware of any traits of each other.

And well, today I fight for my happiness and I failed.

Doesn't matter also, coz I tried.

I believe, my someone is somewhere out there..

I do believe..

Ended..

Feeling so moody today..
Since last night I was like this though...
Decided to meet up my grppyz for dinner..juz to forget for awhile.

My buddy told me..if I want to find him,I will be able to do so..
So I did..
I asked one of our common friend and I managed to get his hp no juz in 1 min.
But..I haf no courage to call him..
I really dun haf.
I dunno why I'm behaving in this way.
I dunno what to sms him..
I dare not call him..afriad of no topic between us..
I hesitate to send him good nite sms..
Yet I miss him..

I gave his hp no to another of our common friend.
Yes.
She called him up.
According to her, they chatted quite happily..
Making fun of each other..joking abt each other..
Jealous I admitted.
I really was.
But what can I do.
I got no guts.

The thought of smsing him just make me feel dat..
Why shld I sms u 1st when u seem to forget me all this while.
why shld I still linger abt u when u already told me we will remain as friend.

Maybe I was wrong to blame him for Hong's death.
But I regretted..though he dunno..
I know it was an accident.
and maybe again, its too late to say anything now.
I couldn't turn back the time at all..not even 1 second..

I haf thoughts of forgetting him and move on with my own life..
But I afraid I will regret in future.
If I wait for him..
and its turn out to be a flower dat never blossom, what should I do?

Am I just finding trouble for myself?
I can't blame him for returning to my life as he never leave before.

We are not together before.
But things happened between us were not simple.
Alot of things happened.
Happy moment...
Sad moment..
Need alot of talking to solve things out I guess.
Buddy said to me..,"your story with him like drama series ley.."
Think of it, quite true.

We..like each other.
No one want to make the 1st move to declare..
we are both this way.
Waiting for the other party to make the 1st move.
Well done.
we ended up no where.
I dunno why we seem so hard to be together.
No fate?
I dunno.

maybe we are not meant to be couple.
Not meant to be together.

I guess I'm just being annoying.
Can't I just stop thinking of him and concentrate on other things?
I hate myself at times.
I feel dat I can't relate my true feelings to him..
At least he did before.
But I rejected him dat time.
Due to certain reason.
Years later,
when I haf chance to tell him I do like him too, I didn't do so.
Bcoz of pride again.
Just bcoz I'm a girl.
Guy shall make the 1st move.
The concept sticks to my brain like a super glue.

When the super glue finally go off..
Too late.
return of a sentence,"we shall be friends."
I'm dat kind..
A simple I miss u is so hard for me to say out..or even type out in a message to be sent out to him..
So how much courage I took juz to sms him,"I like you."
It was not easy for me.
Sad enuff,
I was rejected.

Maybe our story really ended..
ended.

Questions and answers

My weekend spent:
We mit up at Carl's Junior for our late dinner..
Started out by only 3 of us..pals joined in one by one..
We chatted..
At 1st abt Jj's story over uneasy thingy abt her outing with bf..
Conclusion:
Never go out with bf's frenz if his attentive towards his friends will make u feel neglected or uneasy.

Chat proceeded to:
Over huihui and Guoxing..over their so-compatible looks..
They are really so close dat if others dunno, they might mistaken 'em as a couple.
He:
Tied her hair for her.
Carry her bag.
Share his troubles with her.
She:
Alway meeting him out for coffee.
Went movie tgt.
Massaged his hand.
Feeling sad for him when he entered for the Subaru Contest where he stood there for 12hrs already.
Hmm..
Wat a couple if they really are..

Conversation den proceeded to me regarding Tail issue.
Okay..
Me in the 1st place really thought dat Turtle don't have Tail!
Grppyz went on laffing at me over this..
But Seriously,
turtles really have tails??
How could this be?
All along I tot turtles dun have tails..
I'm still puzzled by this.
I admitted.
I still can't believe they have tails..
Watch Ninja Turtles before?
They don't have tails rite?


But I regretted saying this.
Coz they laffed even louder and asked me:
Hello kitty haf Mouth?
I said NO..
den they asked me,"Why cats have mouths while hello kitty dun haf?"
They laffed and laffed..
eh..stupid me..
=(


They: Lizard has ear?
me:NO..
They laff again and said GOT!
But how come they know all this?
Lizard really haf ear?

They:How to fish breathe?
me,"by mouth?"
They:NO..
They laffed even louder..
Isn't the answer by mouth?
if they don't, why they open n close their mouths when they swim?
Strange rite?

Friendshipzz

A simple gal I'm, born 16th march..
A typical Pisces I admit..
**Traditional Pisces Traits**
Imaginative and sensitive
Compassionate and kind
Selfless and unworldly
Intuitive and sympathetic
On the dark side....
Escapist and idealistic
Secretive and vague
Weak-willed and easily led

I often dream alot..dream dream and dream..
I crave for those love that happened in fairy tales...
Of coz, I didn't manage to find one..
But I'm lucky to have a group of Best Best Friends around..

Introducing..

Jennet..
She is my best friend since primary 3..
Know her for 15yrs..
Still as close til now..
A buddy who I can talk to her whole nite with no lack of topics..
We have different opinions but we share and agreed with each individually thinkings we have..
She is a gal who haf her own idea..own thinking..own mindset..
she know what she wanted and she's not easy influenced by others..
She has her own sense of dressing..which is so unique at times..
She loves costume accessories which I remember she don't like to dress up last time..
A pretty gal she is..
But she prefer her boyish looks..with real short hair..
Sometimes I don't even nid to say what I'm thinking, I juz look at her and she know it.
Tele-communications power are strong between us..strong you see..
We love to joke around and sometimes only we two understand our own jokes..
Some pple commented, they see us laughing they will laugh too though they dun even know wat is the joke abt..
Funny pal to hang around with..
Life won't be great without her..
But to think of it..
Our characters are pole-apart..but she said,"pole attracts.."
Well, I guess we are dat why we are buddies!!

Huihui..
She is a gal I know when I re-take my O lvl..
Promote to colleague after dat and dat when we get closer and become best friend..
A happy-go-lucky gal she is..
She used to be so silly towards relationship but dat was the past..
now she's smart and know how to handle her relationship well..
She is craving her career now moving to a manager post in a hotel line currently..
A woman with ambition, responsible and smartness I shall say.
I love being with her..
she shares my sentimentals..she really do..
She understands how I feel..
without me explaining why I did this and that..
I appreciate her concern towards me..
really feel like a sister to me..
She pray for me..when I went for interviews..
She wish me good for everything in my life..
We can chat with everything..really everything..
Being with her is so relaxing..
As she really take care of me..like a little gal..

Jennifer..
A very sweet gal..
A little shy..juz a little..when her boyfriend is around..
Blurr is the best word to describle her..
Another nick for her is Dory..
Why? Dory alway forget things easily..and this is her trait..
She can nod her head when u tell her thingy and she goes asking you,"wat is dat?"
A very clown gal she is..
She likes to perform I guess..
Making fool of herself which really make so much laughter from us...
We are alway laughing at her way of saying chinese..
But she's never angry with us for we making fun of her all the time..
Seen the working side of hers..
Serious, Responsible and committed..
A gal who loves her boyfriend so much..
May happiness befall on her..

Weiqiang..
A very dark guy..
who loves fishing..playing mahjong..
Interested in cooking which really did surprise me..
Now a chef in a Japanese Restaurant..
But alway complaining abt her lady boss..
Quite hot-tempered he is..
Like to say anything..
Seem to be no comment over everything..
But guess he's just being easy-going..
A quiet guy..
But when he talk, he really talk til I can fall asleep..
Likes to pick on pple mistakes and joke abt..
Irriating Nice guy he is..
A nice chap who will help you with your problem if he can help..
A walking directory he is..
You list a place, and he know how to go..by bus, by mrt or by car..
He juz simply know the way.
Impressed!

Guoxing..
Seem to be full of troubles..
But never did share..maybe once in a blue moon..
A guy who never like to take photo..
But with us around, never seem stop taking photos..
Funny faces he make can make us laff non-stop.
A talented guy with electrical stuffs..
Helpful indeed.
Kind soul who seem never to get any return..
Abit stubborn at times which I can't really stand it..
But knowing the reason why will eventually lead to a big..."OH.." in my heart..
Wanted a simple life badly..
Never seem easy for him..
Maybe its not time for him yet..
All I can do is to wish him all the best..


The above are all my best best friends..
Friends dat are from differ area..differ world..differ thinkings..
But we are "item"...
Cannot be separated..
Have to meet every now and den..
If not we will miss each other deeply..
May our friendships last..
Til our teeth drop,
our hairs turn grey..
wrinkles all over our faces..
even when we can't even stand on our feet..
Love you guys