Strange..

Sitting at home alone as usual on weekends, doing nothing, staring at my monitor screen, I was thinking.. We gers keep saying Guys can't be trusted..Guys cheated feeling..Guys only interested in SEX...Guys don't want to commit..but did we ask ourselves..when Gers became the victims of those StuPID SeX BrAiN idioTs, why they choose us? Wat's went wrong?

Our behaviour too open dat they mistaken we're easy..or even loose..Or they find us naive? Easy to conn.....?? Or they think we're SIMPLY GERS WITH NO BRAIN..telling gers they really love them, will love them and treasure them yet after SEX they just disappear..

Guys might thought its so easy to get and won't get into troubles..but did guys tot of those gers who really want a true loving relationship, just want to be with someone they love, how deeply will they hurt them..

Gers who are out for cheating Guys' money all this..why some gers behave this way..Heard from friends from irc saying, "Some gers just want ONS!", "Hey, dat ger said she want to come over to my house ley.." etc..

I tot for a moment..gers behaving this way...guys behaving that way..why the world is changing this way..
Those who truly want a relationship are always those who get hurt......deeply...........

Meaningless..

My Cute Friend!
I know this friend through irc and happened to be he's friends' friend so we become friends..but suddenly today I feel that he's a bully! Like to say me then say sorry. Like to kick me then muackz. I think he's JING SHEN FEN LIE! =pPPp

My Stupid Boss!
I hate him until I feel like slapping him! He's such an idiotic fellow with NO BRAIN! He tot wat..he only the boss ley! If he want to fire me, just fire! Don't make stupid remarks nor shake his stupid head!

Sometimes I really don't know what to do with my own life. I seem to have no interests in anything ard..I can't bother to pack my room..can't bother to watch those vcds I bought 2 months ago. Went to repair my Diamond necklace which my ex gave me as birthday present 2 months yet until now not collect by me ley. Complaint bored is my hobby I guess, yet friends asked me out, I rather couch at home. I am sick of clubbing already..I will be bored to death! Looking at guys fishing girls.. Girls flirting with guys.. Bengsters to be fighting..What the hell? Nonsense is the only word! I just don't understand why people bother to spend money on beers, Martel or watever. They drink, drank, drunk...den vomit?? Why bother to drink it when u're going to vomit it out? duhz.. Life? Aiyoz..give me the money ma..I help you all to spend!!

May happiness befall on all of us...  

Dream or Nightmare?

Yesterday I was talking to a guy on the phone who I know him through Mirc. It was not the 1st time we chatted..but it was different this time round.
We chatted happily when he suddenly said he like me..on my side, he's nice, sweet and most importantly I love to tok to him. But I ponder abt this.. The fact is he never see me before, how can he fall for me? I am a girl with no confidence..he said he wanted to meet me..of coz..I said no as I daren't.. I feel that I have no looks nor figure..nothing of me will attract him..
I thought for awhile last night..there's people who go after me, but they don't mind my looks..don't mind dat I am FAT..which alot of pple saw my photo and said I don't look as I am fat.. hehe.. decieving photo!!~ But this guy here might go for looks and figure..
I simply just want to protect myself. I hate to hear this kinda of things.."Wat happened to you? Why u gain so much weight?", "Hey, u really need to lose some weight?"..etc
Those who said all this didn't knew that it's actually hurt me..but good as well, those nasty remarks make me wanting to slim down so much..dat I am trying now but still no result..
Some friends said, why bother to slim down when there's pple going after you..To me, is not about bgr..its more towards the confidence..I want to gain back my confidence..

R.O.M

Today is a weird day..feeling not so good, but not so bad..thinking of changing job but haf too many commitment on hand..stress another word. Too many things on my mind, thinking how come my life run this way.. I want a change..yet I dunno what..

Early in the morning, I saw my pal who I know for 11yrs online. I was happy to see yet strange as this hour she will be at work. She told me she's on leave becoz her good friend is getting ROM today. Hmm..from this..my brain starts to ponder..RoM.. hmm..when its my turn..although I said before," Nah, dunwan to get into r/s so fast..", etc.. hey..which ger dunwan pple to dote on, care for, feel loved and wanted..

I sit back on my chair, I stare at the screen for a moment. Since I start to have my 1st boyfriend when I was 16, I already change 10 boyfriends so far..what happened to my past r/s.. Am I a loser or I just can't manage my love life well or I just anyhow fall in love.. I dun haf the answer to myself at all..

Among these 10, I only truly loved 2 before. The one is a cute guy who is 2yrs younger den me. Being with him is the happiness moment so far..he bring me all the laughter and fun. But things don't seem to work long..we were together abt a yrs plus and its blow off.. sometimes I think back, ya..I admitted, I took him for granted..I tot he will always treat me good, swallowed all my nonsenses until my friend told me he sicked of me saying break up after each quarrel. ha..see! Dat's me when I was young.. Until now, the feeling yrs back is still fresh in my mind..whenever pple ask me,"Hey, who is the one u love most?" Its still him..although he dun haf looks or figure nor anything..Love is blind..

Rabbit ? Snake ? nahz...

Guys..could u all believe this? I broke up with my ex bf juz bcoz his mum said Chinese Horoscope RABBIT and ROOSTER dun match!! We were abt to ROM le and the mum took our eight characters to seek those fortune-teller and to find out this!! Nonsenses or stupid? Nahz..I was sad abt this for a month and I got over it le. We were deeply in love b4 but he love his mum more.. =) much more wor..duhz..

I did research..and found out ...so its the deadly Snake and Dragon dat Match with Rooster! (Dragon according to frenzz, snake from books)...Snake snake snake.. =P GUys born iN year 1977!

We still contact each other but recently decided to stop le..as he felt dat he can't move on with his own life and I am here..bored at work enuff to tell pple my story..

Love is a wonderful thing..

When I was 16 years old, I haf this dream..finding my dream man, get marry, settle down, haf children and led a everlasting happiness life. Soon, I met my 1st Boyfriend who is charming, big build with a pair of beautiful big eyes. It was love at sight! It's really was! My heart beats against the second hand! I avoid his eyes, avoid hearing him, but he was everywhere..
It was on the same day I knew him dat he became mine. I tot, as dat point of time, everything was so beautiful..but I was wrong.. We were together about 2 weeks when friends came and told me this.."Hey Joanne! Kang is getting marry next month! You din knw abt it?" I was shocked, my heart hurted....He was lying to me all this while.. "What am I to him?" I asked myself..
Guess did I become more alert and protect myself more? Nahz... I din..I guess this is bcoz I believe Love is a wonderful thing~